Redhawk Caldera fading away

Eljay thought back to when mommy had given birth and he had almost lost her. He didn't have a clue what to do at the time except be there for her, but it was clear that that wasn't enough. It was somewhat of a relief that Raven seemed to know a thing or two about herbs even if she had never delivered puppies herself. He felt a pang of envy, knowing that she would be much likelier to bring to world the next batch of pups here. She was a lot more trustworthy after all, and Fox' daughter, too. It wasn't an entirely foreign feeling, because Eljay often felt like he wasn't good enough compared to others, but it was the first time that it affected him so directly in the form of jealousy. As if he'd been fine dangling at the side of all gatherings before, but suddenly he no longer was and wanted to be like others, rather than simply resting in the fact he was less good than them.

Swallowing the weird feeling away, Eljay said, "Thank you, that would be nice." It might help him at least, even if he wasn't sure he'd ever get to use the knowledge. With a grunt, almost as if it cost him great effort to do so, Eljay rose to his feet, preparing for a lesson in herbs; a subject he knew nothing about.