Ankyra Sound the long way round

As soon as the Heda was out of sight, Eljay prettty much broke into a million pieces. All the tension came out from the moment before. Not even all of it was heartbreak; some of it was just the tension of the situation, too, and relief to have done it without breaking down, even if he hadn't made a very good impression. It was something, at least, but that, too, needed to come out. He sobbed and leaned against Wildfire, pretty certain that he was never going to find a home that he would be allowed to settle in. If even Wiffle's pack wouldn't have him, where he had family, where he had someone who actually recommended him...

It was terrifying that she told him that he needed to take care of himself and that it was all in his hands. He wasn't sure he believed that he had what it took, and for the first time, it wasn't even that he thought he was completely miserable at everything... He just knew for sure that he was completely miserable at everything that he could really do when he wasn't even allowed inside the pack territories. He couldn't watch the pups, he couldn't hang out with the pups, he couldn't hunt in big hunts... Essentially, he felt that he had been asked to succeed as a loner before being allowed into the pack, and so far he had been miserable at being a loner.

"But how am I ever going to c-convince her?" he asked with desperation in his eyes. "You saw the way she looked at me, she doesn't think I'm any good at all, and — and all the things I'm good at are in a pack, and all the things I'm terrible at are outside a pack, which is where I have to be!" Eljay looked at Wildfire pleadingly, hoping that she would have some way of getting him in, some advice that he could take, or just... Well, anything, really.