Redhawk Caldera going through changes

Eljay swallowed difficultly while he listened to Towhee talk. He nodded a few times while he submissively looked away, his heart hammering in his chest and his breath coming out in short, stilted breaths while he tried to control himself as to not look like a total, well, dweeb in front of Towhee. After all, she was directly related to Nightjar, and even though so were Wildfire and Raven, well, he didn't want to look like a loser; whether it meant he stayed or went in the end.

"Okay," Eljay said when she finished speaking, not sure what else he could say. "I'll decide soon." He nodded as to emphasise his words, though really all he wanted now was to get out of the situation. He hadn't really considered staying here until Towhee mentioned it, though... Only now did he realise that it might be a viable option. But what about Blixen? And what if when Wildfire returned to Drageda, too, and he was still here? And what about his family? There were so many things he had yet to piece together before he could make a decision that he already felt guilty for promising 'soon'. There was so much left to think about, and knowing himself, he'd think in circles a long while before even deciding.