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and she allowed him. tense muscles eased, slowly, not quite able to let go of the guilt as quickly as she would have liked. she didn't quite touch not, not yet, but then she remembered the sharp burrs at her heart when Aditya had said Pema and I've been talking, all that Sunny had done and how she worried for him still. 

her head swung around, carefully, breath moving the fur by Fen's chest yet not quite touching, not yet, not now. 

she hadn't initiated this sort of thing with Aditya; not since that first time that had left her shamed and guilt-ridden and tainted the act for a good while longer. not since her father's death hung over the pack like a funeral shroud. but this; this was different.