Kildeer Rest john my beloved

Ultimately, it was too much to ask— so perhaps it was best that Ulf had not asked it directly. Alarian could sacrifice many things for those he cared for— but, selfishly, not that. He might have even made the promise, at the wolfdog's urging— he would not have kept it. Instead he drew closer, sinking down to the ground in front of Ulf out of habit.
You, He lied easily in response to the question, eyes shining with unshed tears. What he wanted— what he needed, he thought, was a way out. A way to stop feeling all of this— dealing with all of this— a way to walk away from everything, or maybe just stop existing entirely. Alarian didn't want to hurt Ulf— but he had made the mistake of wanting him, and the wolfdog had made the mistake of wanting Alarian right back. There was only one way this could end.