Stone Circle i get so worried; i get so low

The touch startles him slightly, but it only shows in a brief widening of his eyes. He's quick to put it out of his mind, nodding in response to his friend's words. There is some relief in hearing that he's doing better — the last thing he needs is to lose another patient. He's not as enthused when the questioning turns on him, but he's spent long enough avoiding these kinds of things.
I'm just... thinking, He says, swallowing hard and glancing toward the stars. About someone who used to be important to me. He almost says more — but something stops him. Maybe it's the fact that it feels like a betrayal; it's one thing to think it, to know within himself that Zamael's place in his life is now used to be — and another entirely to say it. At least, it feels that way.