Stone Circle i get so worried; i get so low

He wants to die — or maybe not die, but sink into the ground and never return. This is awful. He's awful — and Outlander is going to hate him. Well, um, I mean... He takes another breath. We, um — we were... really friendly with each other. He shifts uncomfortably, resisting the urge to wince at how it sounds when he says really friendly; it's obvious what he means, and somehow that makes it feel crude.
But I um — the last time we saw each other before you — I was in a relationship, and we almost — He swallows, trying to figure out a sentence he actually wants to finish; it doesn't really work. My, uh — the other guy showed up and... everyone was pretty upset. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner.