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It was true that he worried a lot, maybe even too much; he wouldn't deny that. Fennec seemed amused by it to some degree as she said that he should take time for himself and unwind. But Eljay couldn't help but feel that if he would go, he'd be gone for a long time and it would be hard for others. He felt like they needed him, and he felt like he was letting them down if he did leave.

I suppose so, he said, though couldn't help but feel that he wouldn't get to visit Fennec much. He didn't know his way around outside at all, so he didn't feel confident finding his way.

Fennec then said that it was stupid to think a pack couldn't function without one. Eljay glanced at his paws and was silent for some time after she said that. He did feel kinda stupid feeling that way. However, he didn't want to let anyone down, either. Maybe she was right, and nobody would really mind if he went away. He thought of when he had first left home. It was... Trying. Nobody had missed him then; not really. Why did he think it would be different now? It was laughable in a way.

Ah... I guess you're right. It is pretty stupid. Eljay sounded conflicted, as it he didn't know what to feel. He wasn't sure if this talk made him feel better or worse. He still felt regularly as if he wasn't needed at all. Well... That's how he felt like right now, anyway, after what Fennec had said, or rather, reminded him of. It mostly reminded him of a dark place in his past and made him feel as if he hadn't grown at all since then. It wasn't a very great or flattering feeling.

Do you have many friends there? Eljay asked, in an attempt to steer the subject back to something a little less dark.