Redhawk Caldera Let's go and see the stars, the Milky Way or even Mars.

Eljay's reassurances helped to pull her out of some of the guilt spiral, but she still felt horrible about this whole situation.  She understood why Wraen had wanted to leave, even if she didn't necessarily share the reason.  She'd had both good and bad encounters upon the Moonspear, and while she didn't really judge the wolves there one way or the other, that was because she wasn't one for judgements period.  She respected Wraen's all the more because of it.

Not just that - Maia enjoyed the freedom of travel.  It was dangerous, but it was also a lot of fun, and even only a few days after she knew that one bad encounter wasn't going to make her stop enjoying all of the good ones left to be discovered.  She was just going to be a whole heck of a lot more careful now.

There's so many ways to be that, she answered with a small smile that didn't quite reach her eyes.  Her entire problem was she wanted too much.  She wanted to travel and see places and enjoy the company of Wraen, Arcturus, Penn, the family they'd made these last few months.  But she also wanted to be here with Weejay, and Eljay, snuggled up to him constantly and enjoying this newfound feeling of being actually, fully and completely, wanted in a way she'd never been before.  

I love being here.  But I'm always going to love traveling.  She looked down again.  Maybe someday I'll get tired of it and want to settle down, but there's so much out there I haven't heard of, and so many stories I haven't learned.  With Wraen, I get that, and I can't lose it.  But I don't want to lose you either.  If she had to choose, she would.  

That's why she didn't want to choose.  She wanted to travel with Wraen, then come home to him, but she wasn't sure if that was something that was even possible.  It felt selfish, asking them both to wait on her, to share her time with each other because she couldn't decide.  What they wanted had to matter too.

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