Redhawk Caldera If she gives you her heart don't you break it

As she walked away from the pack, Eljay couldn't help but feel as if she walking out of his life. He knew it couldn't be true, because she'd said she would come back later. She said that she just needed a little bit of space. Eljay knew somewhere deep down that that meant that she'd be back; that Maia told the truth there, as she always did.

Still, when she left his heart could not help but shatter into a million pieces. He'd hoped so hard that she would turn around and come back, that she'd realise how much it hurt him that she left, but instead she kept going. Eljay felt the tears finally spill over and he sobbed as he stood and watched her walk away. He had to hold onto every rational thought he had to convince himself that this wouldn't be the last time he saw her. Still, he was hurting and everything felt so broken right now.

With a few choked sobs he turned around towards Redhawk Caldera territory. His throat tightened and his breathing came out in ragged shakes. The familiar signs of a panic attack were not lost on him but the caretaker knew that he couldn't just turn his back on his pack mates. Niamh's leg was hurt and Towhee had just had a miscarriage and who even knew what the current status is with Reyes? A lot was going on and he had to be there for them.

On his way back Eljay had to stop and sit down, allow himself to cry while he tried to get his breathing under control because his head was light from all the stress, lack of sleep and hyperventilated breathing. Get it together Eljay, they need you, he told himself and blinked away the tears. Then he went on his way again, back to the rest of the pack to help them deal with their messes, and leaving his own in the fridge for now.