Redsand Canyon Whatever makes you happy

He apologized and consoled her and she felt guilty because he had already told her about how a motherly relationship was something he’d never really had. She was talking about something out of his depth of understanding due to his own shitty life circumstances… she tried to remind herself that this was the burden of marriage, being able to confide in one another in this way and know each other’s fears like this… but she already knew he took the weight of the world on his shoulders, like Atlas trying to keep the world revolving.
 
She knew that mentions of her father or Dimitri were such a sensitive topic… they were for her as well, just in a different and more vulnerable way. Where Kallik felt rage, she felt fear and shame and loathing surrounding the way she was raised and the wolf she used to be. Much had changed for her over the past few months and there was no looking back. She still feared them, but in a different way. She feared what they could do to those that she loved, what they might do to Kallik, especially Dimitri if he were to ever discover the closeness he had to her.
 
The words were whispered as he embraced her and she buried her face into the thick fur of his neck, simply breathing in his scent. It was likely not the time nor the place to have such a conversation, but this was where they were when the words came tumbling out. “It feels like my fault… and I worry  it will happen again… I worry Ruenna might bleed like my mother did when she has her litter and I won’t be able to stop it.” She hated that she doubted herself in that way, words muffled but intelligible through his fur.