Lion Head Mesa [m] forever in debt to your priceless advice

last post from me!! thank you so much for the thread akhtar is a joy to read and write with <3333

There is no love here. 
And it is not so much the expectation of it from the priest as it is the longing. The betrayal she feels for having given her body to someone who is not Selena, the desire for the warm mouth of a woman of which she will never know again. The regret is endless, tiring; the shame is brutal. The distraction only fleeting and one that leaves her with a memory lit ablaze. 
And Akhtar is just as he had said he was. A dog. A man, or not quite. 
And so through glass eyes, she turns to him. Be well, Akhtar, is whispered, and quietly but urgently, she escorts him out. 

And once he is gone, she will slip from under the Queen's gaze, out through the tunnels and go to the nearby wellspring. And there, she would wash away Akhtar as much as she would the last traces of Selena. A necessary evil.