Redhawk Caldera workin' man

Eljay felt like a right idiot for sitting here like a dumbass and being unable to control even his breathing. He wanted so badly to make mommy and daddy proud and be useful to the pack, and especially he didn't want to ever leave Redhawk Calera... Let alone be forced into leaving. What if they'd chase him off for being useless? Eljay gulped for breath like a silly fish while Mazi spoke and tried to calm him down.

The fact she continued to speak to him as though things were cool instead of him having a massive panic attack helped. He didn't feel like such a huge idiot for freaking out anymore, and at least he got some control over his breathing and the feeling of choking went away gradually. She even suggested something he could do, and for the first time Eljay started thinking that maybe a trade mentioned [i]would/i] be good for him. He still didn't think just watching pups would be real useful, but Eljay could at least try and if they were a bit bigger they'd not be so fragile.

He was still afraid to totally muck it up, but he liked the idea of spending lots of time with the lil' pups. "I... I'd like that," he brought out and he offered a sheepish smile. "What... What sort of other things would a caretaker do, beside looking at the pups? Do... Would I have to teach them stuff?" The thought was kind of frightening, but also exciting. There was gratitude in his expression, glad that Mazi helped him instead of ridiculing him like she would've been right to do.