Greatwater Lake Not the Man I Once Was

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She tensed as he jumped up and ran over to her, unsure at first if it was in aggression or surprise. After what had happened between their packs and between her and Nemisis, she had no idea how he felt about her anymore. But the way he said her name first made her relax, the soft, uncertain sound of his voice suggesting that he had no ill intentions today. But just as quickly as the tension left her muscles, anger filled her chest—anger at herself for the way her heart skipped a beat at the softness in his voice and angry at him for addressing her in such a way. How could he be this way with her after having done so many terrible things? Was this just a game he played with her?

She met his smile with none of the playfulness or softness she might have shown him before. Instead she studied his face with cold distrust. It hurt more than she thought to feel so distrustful of him, but after all the lying, and everything he had done, she wasn't sure she would ever be able to trust him again. 

She didn't immediately answer his question; she wasn't sure she how or if she wanted to give him any information. There was a battle raging inside between her heart and her mind, and anyone studying her eyes close enough might catch glimpses of it; she was having trouble keeping the feelings behind her mask while so tired and emotionally spent. I'm— she finally said, but then her word was quickly cut off. She looked away, out over the lake. Why do you care? she finished softly, leaving it ambiguous as to which question she was actually answering—both probably, but even she wasn't entirely sure.