Broken Antler Fen stop time

Something felt wrong. She knew when he confirmed, gently, that she was right and she still felt nothing but a guilty sinking in her stomach. She wasn't lying to him about wanting to be there for them. It didn't make any sense, this feeling, and she was ready to shove it aside when he went on to mention a trip.

Um, I don't. I mean, should we? I'm not. I... Her immediate reaction was panic, but then she realized what she was doing. Eljay wanted to take a trip, with her, and she was saying no? How could she do that?!

Wait, I really want to, it's just. I'm sorry. Ah, here it was, the spiraling. Her voice started thickening as the alarm bells starting sounding. Yeah, we should go. We can go.

Once she got started, suddenly, she couldn't stop. I just... everything is wrong. It wasn't supposed to be like this. We were supposed to be happy. And then when I am, I feel like I shouldn't be, and it all just keeps happening and I can't take anything else. Despite the emotion to the words, surprisingly, she didn't cry. It was weird, but maybe she'd just kind of used them all up by now.

I think maybe I just.... I don't know. I don't think I should be a Raven. She looked down, ashamed. Not because she thought he'd judge her, but because she was disappointed in herself. He had so much faith in her and in what she could do, but in the end, she couldn't bring herself to feel the same.

Even after saying all of that, there was no real catharsis either. All she felt was exhausted.