Wapun Meadow broke my own limb and blamed you for the limp

if there was one thing wren was decidedly good at, it was her ability to tumble downward in a violent cascade at the very first tremble of earth when she stood on the precipice of her emotions. silvertongue tries; she tries so hard to comfort her, to reassure her, and for a stretching moment the warrior is thankful for it before she can no longer bite back the avalanche that threatened to roll from her tongue.
i am afraid, she croaks. i'm fuckin' terrified. i don't want to fuck them up in the same way my parents fucked up with me. but i-- i do want this. i want it with you because-- because i love you, and i like the woman i am a whole lot better when i'm with you.
but she did not yet know what it'd been like when she was gone.
but what scares me the most is-- it's not just riverclan that doesn't like me. it's the whole valley, silver. before i left swiftcurrent, gunnar came to our border to tell us-- you remember that, uh, that guy? that tried to take moss's child? the one i, a swallow, a breath, hard and sharp in her throat; the one i fought with. apparently, he was from kvarsheim. and i had no idea. g-gunnar wanted-- wanted to put me on trial, and akavir tried to protect me, and i-i have never felt so fucking guilty for anything in my life, and i just-- i missed you so much. and i left. i went to go find you. and now-- swiftcurrent creek hates me for leaving, and kvarsheim would probably have my fucking head on a stick if they knew i was even still out here, and,
shaking, trembling, rupturing; sometimes i think about just grabbing you and all our shit, and leaving the valley. b-but i don't wanna do that to you. i don't wanna drag you down with me because-- because i fucked up. and i'm sorry i didn't tell you this sooner, i, i just-- i want us to be happy. i wanna raise our kids together and be, be stupid, and grow old together, and all that dumb lovey-dovey shit, b-but i'm such a fuck up and i'm-- terrified that one day you're gonna get sick of me and leave and i... i wouldn't even be able to blame you.