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Faster than she could blink, Alyx was on the ground, folded easily beneath the weight of her father, while both Towhee and Niamh verbally scolded her. Alyx had nothing else to say. She thought she'd always been perfectly respectful to her parents, who all happened to also be her leaders. She was a good kid, or she thought she was. She'd always followed the rules. She'd never given them a reason to doubt her.

Why did they not trust her judgment on this?

For that was how she took their refusal to let her go live with Rusalka. Maybe Towma and Niamh were right, maybe they'd only been kind to her because she was young, but she didn't think so. Nothing about them or their pups had seemed the least bit hostile to her. Solaire was a little stern compared to the other pups, but that was just her personality. The way Alyx saw it, she knew a lot more about modern day Rusalka than her parents did, even though she really didn't. She couldn't see it. She only saw how unfair it was, and felt the pain of missing her friend, all of which was made far more dramatic by the puppy crush she had on him.

Her eyes stung with tears when they grounded her and she had to bite her tongue when Towhee suggested she might go to Firefly Glen instead. Well meaning as it was, Alyx took it about as gracefully as being slapped in the face. She could go and live with more family and still live without any friends that weren't her relatives? She could go live with perfect trustworthy Meerkat and perfect trustworthy Bronco, but she couldn't have her parents' trust on decisions she made? It made her feel invalidated rather than hopeful. In that moment, the upset she felt about Meerkat and Bronco leaving flared so strongly into resentment that she nearly declared that she never wanted to see them again and would never go to Firefly Glen, but luckily, her throat was too tightly constricted by her dramatic emotions for her to choke out anything at all.

Having decided she'd had enough of being pressed into the dirt by her father, Alyx attempted to shove away, clearly upset and unwilling to speak with them any longer.