The Sentinels But you know I'm gonna play 'em for keeps

Oh. Maia responded, in a somewhat small voice.  Umm.  To her horror, she felt her cheeks immediately begin to burn as she thought of what had happened.  She hadn't really wanted to revisit the goodbyes yet.

When I went to say goodbye to Eljay, Weejay said he should come with.  But he freaked out and didn't want to come so much that it was awful, and it just... it isn't fair.  Every time I think maybe someone is awesome, they don't feel that way about me, and I don't think anyone ever will.  She answered.  By the end her voice was broken with slight, heaving sobs, and she had to pause for a moment before she could continue.

It's stupid, though.  She finished, sniffling.  I want to be here.  It just hurts.  She hated to admit it, but she'd gotten her hopes up.  Especially when Weejay had said what she said.  The only time I've seen you happy is when Maia comes by.

She'd kept this to herself while they were there, but now that they were gone, she didn't see much point in hiding it anymore.  She trailed off, still sniffling.  It really was stupid.