Sun Mote Copse you took all the lonely days and made them sing

It was hard to find a reason to get up and do things every day. Weejay was one of Eljay's only driving motivators right now. He was reminded every day both of how he was ignoring his responsibilities towards the pack's pups and @Towhee and @Niamh as mothers, as well as how he wasn't really needed because they hadn't really come looking for him after he had disappeared from his initial overbearing caretaking. It was a strange dual feeling and one that only confused him even more. It made him feel weak and pathetic, like so many times before in his life, because he knew that all he needed to do was just get on with his life and pick up his duties in the pack again. It was so easy. Possibly the easiest thing that anyone had ever faced.

But he just couldn't.

The carefree travels he had taken with @Maia to look for Elfie were now distant specks of joy. @Weejay's flowers brought small smiles on his face every day she brought them. He loved smelling them when she was out doing other things because it reminded him of her enthusiasm for them. It reminded him of how much she was like Wildfire in so many ways.

Eljay got up to relieve himself and get something to drink for his parched throat that day. He didn't really remember when the last time he'd gone out way. His fur was unkempt and not taken care of as well as it used to be, and he was still a little thin, though he hadn't further thinned down (the pack made sure of that, I'll presume). He stretched his weary limbs and started towards a nearby bush where he lifted his leg to pee, and then started to make his way to the nearby stream. Sunlight danced through the trees of the magical copse, a place that would forever remind him of the one true love he had found after half a lifetime and had lost seeming seconds after.

tags for reference, AW!