Redhawk Caldera run away with me now

Maia tried to reassure him, though Eljay was only mildly reassured. He felt a little better at the thought that Maia at least thought he was unable to chase her off, but he was still afraid that he would actually chase her off if she knew what he was talking about. He honestly didn't want to feel this way, but he did, and he hated it. He hated that it seemed he was bound to ruin everything, and all he had to do for it was just be himself. The days before his talk with Towhee had been pleasant and he had thought not too much about the future, but she had planted the seed and it had manifested into a giant beanstalk that had grown way beyond Eljay's control.

Okay, he replied, though his voice was small and sounded a little tight and panicked. I've just been thinking a lot about — okay, so you guys settle nearby, and.. and you can visit all the time — but — what if — what about later? What about — I — want a family with you. His voice stopped in his throat before he said it though, and his breathing remained rapid while his eyes panickedly searched for places on the horizon in an attempt to occupy himself with anything but bringing this to a full blown panic attack.