Chimera Fields I see it, eat though every word I sow

Once he had adjusted, they slowly began to make their way back. The added help really did make her shoulder feel a little better, and she sighed a little in relief. She quickly offered Mal a pained look, though. I'm sorry, Mal, she told him quietly. Apologizing again, because all she did was make things difficult for him. I keep causing more problems for you. First she had worried him, and now Aibreann would definitely be mad, definitely at both of them. I promise I don't usually do it on purpose. I just— her words fell away into a strained silence. She swallowed. I just—sometimes I just can't think the right way, she tried to explain. I don't know... Simmik shook her head, eyes suddenly filling with tears. I feel like no matter what I do, the memories never go away. I just want to get on with my life, but they just keep pulling back to that moment. She sniffled a little but said nothing else. What else was there to say? She was messed up, and she didn't think she would ever not be.