Wheeling Gull Isle Still you give yourself away

To have mom and dad here. To have his siblings, too, as witnesses. But mom was far away - please not dead, please not dead! - and his siblings, so far in heart. He didn't know if Dinah kept the faith anymore. He didn't even know Judah at all. And if he only brought Kai -

John brought him back, gentle eyes and gentle voice, and Simeon nodded. I want to pray for everyone, too, he said as he fell in step with the preacher who'd saved him, once. Now, he barely knew how he'd been small enough for the man to drag him from the sea. For mom. Gramma. All of my siblings, Ava, Ana, Tzedeq, and Abel, too.

I am a little scared, a lot scared, mostly just of the water. But maybe that's okay. Because there were many things he was scared of, weren't there? Of losing his family, of leaving his homeland, of turning away from this place he thought he'd call forever. Of starting again.

I don't want my fear to keep me from doing what He's asking me to do.

Maybe this fear wasn't a bad place to be. 

Maybe in this moment, this tension in between, it was perfect.