Broken Boulder the first time ever i saw your face

He nods as she speaks, but for some reason her last words cause him to falter — will it get better? Even if it does, will he allow it? There are no clear answers, so he doesn't bother voicing the questions; he'll only feel guilty when he can't believe the inevitable reassurance. Instead he allows a brief silence to fall between them, thoughts wandering elsewhere.
Look, we should um, talk — about the Runion thing, He says after a time, reluctantly. He's given no one at the Sanctuary clear answers or even a brief explanation — Zamael and Eris know already, for the most part, and he assumes Delight and Lily have gone along with it out of trust for the three of them. But they do deserve to know the full truth, or at least as much as Alarian can give them himself; it goes without saying that the conversation with Lily will be the easier of the two, but he's still a little uncertain. I'm sure you want to know... why. Right?