Noctisardor Bypass can you help me understand why these cards are dealt

Laurel could feel it in her body; soon, it was time. Her scent was beginning to change and she felt different. In her head she could hear Iliksis' voice resound, and every time he said something he sounded more and more plausible. She didn't want it to be so, but she knew what it was and she knew what she must do, soon. Today, as she gathered herself for what was to come — filled with anticipation and a deeply seeded fear — Laurel lounged by the Birdsong Lagoon and looked out over the water.

She knew of only two other men currently residing in the pack — @Argent and @Ephemeris — and the latter was the only one she had met. He was a brutish sort, a fighter, and she hoped that she wouldn't run into him today. She knew nothing of the other; had only picked up his scent around, but didn't know who he was or even what his name was.

Laurel thought of Sequoia and Praimfaya; both were probably busy with their children. She had brought them food occasionally. Would they do the same for her? Above all of her thoughts was the thought whether she was truly ready to be a mother again. Another layer deeper lay her deepest fear and worry, voiced by the poison dripping between her ears in the form of Iliksis' deep voice: Are you ready to do what needs to be done to be a mother again, my dearest?

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