Redhawk Caldera it takes two baby.
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Mommy seemed to either soften or just plain break, Eljay couldn't tell. He shuffled his feet, feeling guilty for telling on Nightjar. With his mother's absence of real reply, Eljay grew insecure and he wondered if she thought it was his own fault. He'd already tried telling mommy that it was his own fault, because he was an insecure weenie and he hated himself for that, too. So how could Nightjar not? Nightjar was everything that Eljay wanted to be, and the fact his mother's attitude had changed from anger towards whoever had called him a weenie to indecision and uncertainty told him more than he needed to know; she felt the same. She wished that Eljay was more like Nightjar too, instead of his cowardly, clingy self. He didn't try to be cowardly, but things were just so scary. He didn't try to be clingy, but he just loved mommy and daddy so much, even though he wondered in that moment if they loved him as much as he did them, because the long expected affirmation that Nightjar shouldn't be calling him names didn't come from mommy's mouth.

Instead, mommy just looked at daddy and it was daddy who then chimed in and broke the silence that lingered and festered Eljay's mind. Daddy was the one to say that it wasn't right for Nightjar to say these things. Not right for anyone, including Nightjar. Even daddy seemed to think that Nightjar was worth putting on the pedestal that Eljay put him on. He was special, but not even he could call Eljay names. Eljay looked at mommy, waiting a beat or two to hear the words from her mouth, too. Oh, how badly he needed to hear the words from her mouth. He needed her to say that he didn't deserve to be called names and that he was good the way he was, that she loved him and that she liked him just the way he was.

"I'll try to talk to him about it, daddy," Eljay said to daddy, though mostly to appease his father. He wasn't really sure if he was supposed to tell Nightjar not to do it, and part of him was scared that it'd just get worse if he did that (besides, Nightjar would just think he was an even bigger weenie, and Eljay wanted nothing more than for Nightjar to see him as peer and equal!). Still feeling nervous and insecure, Eljay looked pleadingly at his mother, silently begging her to say something to prove that his insecurities and fears weren't true; that she loved him.
Messages In This Thread
it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 06, 2016, 08:25 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 06, 2016, 08:28 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 07, 2016, 01:55 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 07, 2016, 06:40 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 07, 2016, 11:18 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 08, 2016, 02:04 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 11, 2016, 07:31 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 11, 2016, 10:46 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 12, 2016, 03:35 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 12, 2016, 08:35 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 13, 2016, 05:31 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 14, 2016, 01:48 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 16, 2016, 01:49 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 18, 2016, 09:15 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 19, 2016, 11:03 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 19, 2016, 04:40 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 22, 2016, 11:49 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 23, 2016, 03:47 AM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Finley - March 25, 2016, 04:21 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Elwood - March 28, 2016, 07:33 PM
RE: it takes two baby. - by Eljay - March 29, 2016, 03:03 AM