I will carry cross and song where I don't belong
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Ooc — Jaclyn
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He had held her as she wept. She was all he had left. He did not know who mom was anymore. Her grief frightened him, and he was still too numb to really know what grief would make him.
He can't be gone. He can't be gone. This can be real.
But it was, wasnt it? Juju. Dad. Abel and Tzedeq and Ana. They should be coming round the corner with a joke or funny story, with weird side eyes or funny little clicks. But they never came, and silence swallowed the places they should be. Dreadful and empty.
When Dee finally left him, he knew where she was going, into that great beyond that held none of the sorrows of the island. None yet, but he had a feeling it soon would. It always would. And that was the nature of this world.
Broken.
Groaning.
Waiting, under the weight of grief and that quiet that deafened the corners where faith should be found.
Why, God?
Simeon didn't expect to hear answer, and he didnt get one. Just the lap of ocean water against the shore, the peaceful cry of the gulls, and the little silhouette of Ava crashing across the landbridge. Running away? Or chasing after Dinah and mom?
Dee and mom thought God had left them. Simeon didn't think He had. He had never been spiritual like mom. Never religious like Kai. He and Dee had always been on a similar page, but she had left Him, and now, Simeon had to let his own faith grow up.
I don't know why.
He stood from his solitude and found his way one final time down the lavender fields.
Maybe I won't ever.
A last turn of his eyes upon Sweetharbour, seafoam stare taking in their paradise lost. A tip of his head bid @Malakai to come and follow. He was a royal pain in the butt, but he was still his brother. And he did not want him here alone.
But I know who You are.
I know who I am.
Whether she heard him or not would soon be seen, but he would follow her trail regardless, even as she followed Dee and mom out into the wilds.
I am still your child,
And you are still my God.
He can't be gone. He can't be gone. This can be real.
But it was, wasnt it? Juju. Dad. Abel and Tzedeq and Ana. They should be coming round the corner with a joke or funny story, with weird side eyes or funny little clicks. But they never came, and silence swallowed the places they should be. Dreadful and empty.
When Dee finally left him, he knew where she was going, into that great beyond that held none of the sorrows of the island. None yet, but he had a feeling it soon would. It always would. And that was the nature of this world.
Broken.
Groaning.
Waiting, under the weight of grief and that quiet that deafened the corners where faith should be found.
Why, God?
Simeon didn't expect to hear answer, and he didnt get one. Just the lap of ocean water against the shore, the peaceful cry of the gulls, and the little silhouette of Ava crashing across the landbridge. Running away? Or chasing after Dinah and mom?
Dee and mom thought God had left them. Simeon didn't think He had. He had never been spiritual like mom. Never religious like Kai. He and Dee had always been on a similar page, but she had left Him, and now, Simeon had to let his own faith grow up.
I don't know why.
He stood from his solitude and found his way one final time down the lavender fields.
Maybe I won't ever.
A last turn of his eyes upon Sweetharbour, seafoam stare taking in their paradise lost. A tip of his head bid @Malakai to come and follow. He was a royal pain in the butt, but he was still his brother. And he did not want him here alone.
But I know who You are.
Ava!he called after her when he reached the beach,
wait up!
I know who I am.
Whether she heard him or not would soon be seen, but he would follow her trail regardless, even as she followed Dee and mom out into the wilds.
I am still your child,
And you are still my God.
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