January 30, 2018, 11:04 PM
indra couldn't share blondine's world-view: not now when everything she had come to witness of the world had been upended. for so long she had wanted to believe that life served a purpose -- that the good you made of the world would come back to hold you. she no longer believed this. not even if blondine was here to nuture or protect her. what good was being good, if bad men could still hurt you?
as if some idol had come crashing down, indra was left helmless -- a ship without captain and a hull without soul. she looked at the ground and hate stung her eyes with tears. it didn't matter what blondine said -- she didn't believe it. everyone sucked. everyone. her temples were pounding with overwhelming emotion and a sickness churned her belly. what made ithrik not raised right? what made reek incapable of fidelity, or men incapable of love? what quantified as their sickness?
she nearly threw up in the snow - a wave of hot bile pressed her throat. "because they suck." she repeated quietly.
as if some idol had come crashing down, indra was left helmless -- a ship without captain and a hull without soul. she looked at the ground and hate stung her eyes with tears. it didn't matter what blondine said -- she didn't believe it. everyone sucked. everyone. her temples were pounding with overwhelming emotion and a sickness churned her belly. what made ithrik not raised right? what made reek incapable of fidelity, or men incapable of love? what quantified as their sickness?
she nearly threw up in the snow - a wave of hot bile pressed her throat. "because they suck." she repeated quietly.
now the wren has gone to roost and the sky is turning gold,
and like the sky, my soul is also turning.
and like the sky, my soul is also turning.
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and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 14, 2018, 09:46 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 16, 2018, 06:31 AM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 17, 2018, 07:17 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 18, 2018, 10:29 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 18, 2018, 11:48 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 19, 2018, 12:24 AM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 20, 2018, 02:42 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 20, 2018, 09:23 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 20, 2018, 09:32 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 21, 2018, 12:40 AM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 22, 2018, 07:51 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 22, 2018, 09:38 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 23, 2018, 06:16 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 25, 2018, 07:20 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 27, 2018, 02:37 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 30, 2018, 03:47 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - January 30, 2018, 11:04 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Blondine - January 31, 2018, 03:48 PM
RE: and that was my fault, to not know how far down the hole i had fallen - by Indra - February 02, 2018, 10:19 AM