Broken Boulder i just want to be better than your head's only medicine

Somewhere during the vomiting, it all comes back to him; the reason he's here, like this. The reason Zamael is so upset. He shivers fiercely, moving away from his own vomit instinctively as the heaving subsides. For several beats he's quiet.
I'll go, He croaks suddenly, literally choking on his own words for a moment. I — I'll go, just don't — please don't leave me again. His words are slurred and rushed, his tone frantic. He can't lose Zamael again, not when he knows it would kill him this time. Even if it means losing everything else.