Swiftcurrent Creek but before you shoot please warn us

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her head lifts quickly, so quick she has to blink groggily for a few moments as her vision swims with the dizzying force. however after blinking rapidly the figure her way comes into focus and it's neither helios or zeph. of course it's not, stupid. she bites back the bitter disappointment to well up in her chest as lainie takes the last few steps to reach her. the feeling doesn't last long though for as soon as her sister lays down and snuggles into her the little dove relaxes muscles she didn't even realise had been previously tensed and allows for a small sigh to slip from her jaws as she nestles into the embrace- a small flicker of warmth building in her chest amidst the hurt. despite everything she was not alone, at least there was that. her lainie was still here and polaris pushes her nose into her fur with an almost vicious intensity, fueled by a sudden desperation to make sure she stays. because if two could leave doesn't that mean one more could too? and polaris couldn't allow that, she wouldn't...she couldn't...it'd be too awful to imagine. being alone. 

she'd nod quietly at the words, eyes stinging as tears pricked at their corners. something about hearing that even lainie, brave, strong willed lainie was scared made her heart ache with a new intensity. and even weirder, she felt anger, how could they do that to lainie? to her? but then anxiety crashes down again and guilt because maybe they had no choice, maybe something had happened...she shifts, chewing at her lip as her mind swirls. it's exhausting. 

in the end all she can get out is a strained "why" although after a few moments she does at least realise that it seems as if she's questioning her sister's fear which is silly, obviously she knows that. she struggles for a few moments before finally getting out an elaboration. "why would they...why did they...." it's all that she manages now before another bitter whimper slips free and she paws at the ground. where did they go?