Ocean's Breath Plateau Dreamer

Not ashamed. When she listened to him, she could not hear creeping disgust within his voice. Maybe she understood now, and now as he spoke into her neck. That there was godspeak between their words and what he whispered to her, and that should Ra encapsulate her, it was Senmut who devoured. What a wonderful thing to realize now, to acknowledge now, to feel now. That they were simply different, and different was a beauty for her and her alone. Special.

Not quite the gods he worshipped, nor the woman he walked tight to, or the ground he walked on. Legend was none of these things, and that was the holiness of it. Oh, to be in glory. Oh, to be special. Oh, to be special. She was special.

An iced spine, chilly eyes, none of it would cradle the way she felt then blissfully manic: how when she thought he would move on as many should, as many did, as many would, he moved to her. Special. Special. Oh, to be special. Though, their special now gave her nothing of what she starved for. It did not make her more. They could make it more, but the way her mind molded was then into water that wasted away to hear more of his words. How could confusion be full of wickedness when she loved feeling it so?

"The gods speak through You." Turning her muzzle into his nape, her eyes were now soft and open. As if she now saw the voices of gods in an mirage of colors coming from his lips. "I," she saw him, hypnotized, just as she was hypnotizing, "feel them upon You. And when he speaks, it is a commandment."

What did it mean? When you wished to fulfill someone's word with your very being so excruciatingly bad? When your breath halted for them and breathed only when told to. To feel so drowned, to wish to be. A feeble whine fumbled itself from her sorry, and very lost lips.

"Like You are the altar," the red upon his throat was touched, and then pulled from, for she lacked the permission. She met his eyes and stayed there while fire bled into fire. Self-validated, because it was what she starved for in his teeth now. "And there I kneel."