Wapun Meadow i must become a lion hearted girl

sorry for taking so long to get this up! backdated to july 7th. slight pp at the start to get it moving, hope that's okay~

that past few nights had been fretful and she'd woken up tired but with a new found determination to set things right. the truth had been set free and yes it was an awful truth, one that still made the girl wince and sent searing bolts of shocked pain through her at the strangest times but it was hers and that she appreciated. it was a beautiful morning, the sky was powder blue and the warm air was alive with the hum of bugs and the lyrical chatter of birds. three days had passed since her talk with papa and four had passed since her outburst at lainie, she had to admit guiltily that she'd yet to locate her sister since that day but today was the time for that to change!

it was just, after realising the extent of what zephyr had done, what it truly meant to kill- she hadn't wanted to face her sister. knowing she'd witnessed that, what do you say to someone who's seen that? especially after you shouted at them, broke down in front of them and then ran away from them?? she'd settled to spending a couple of distraught days trying to cope with the reality of her sibling's crime and the guilt associated with the pain she'd caused lainie alone. she just hadn't known how to form words about the whole thing- hell her mind hadn't even been able to form thoughts regarding it for the first while. so how was she supposed to talk to anyone about it? even the thought of it had made her feel physically sick. 

but today was different, today she felt braver. she was ready to be an adult and stop being a little crybaby, she was going to find her sister and accept her offer to go look for her brothers. a restless energy had started up in her bones and the idea of spending another day hiding from life in general had suddenly lost its appeal.

and she was a child and with being a child came that miraculous ability to adapt and overcome that even adults struggled with more than their younger counterparts. inhaling deeply, the silvery girl left her makeshift den prison and went to seek her sister. 

it didn't take long to find @Lainie and after tentatively asking her would she meet her in the meadow where they'd met the other pups before in an hour or so and getting an agreement she went off to eat and clean herself up because gosh did she look bedraggled. then after that time passed she'd find herself crossing the border, excitement rolling off of her in waves at the act of stepping over this invisible but oh so important boundary for the first time by herself. there she stood, outside of the confines of her home all by herself. she felt so light, as if she could fly like the birds she loved so much. actually, she felt invincible with all this undiscovered land lying out in front of her. her pale paws buzzed at the mere thought of what lay out there waiting for her.

but for now she'd stick to what she was more familiar with and retraced the steps she'd taken with her family not too long ago. it was a bittersweet walk, associated with memories that in theory were happy but now were tinged with sadness because..helios and zephyr had been there and....zephyr hadn't killed yet. she swallows hastily, swaying slightly as one of those pain waves happen and shakes her head sharply- blinking away tears. she'd cried a lot recently. but she continued on anyway, happy to have this walk by herself to gather her thoughts before properly meeting lainie again. everything is so beautiful though and it really does help calm her down as she marvels at the wonderful things surrounding her before she reaches the meadow.

and it's...it's breathtaking. flowers of all glorious colours sway lazily in gentle breeze as equally colourful butterflies and happily buzzing bees float around their swaying heads. she inhales the amazing smells deeply and sinks back onto her haunches, awaiting her sister's arrival- tail twitching with nervous anticipation. would she be mad? she really hoped not, she was ready to make things right.