Sequoia Coast god loves you, but not enough to save you

It appears as though Dinah had roused her, but the regret and worry over doing so washes away when she feels two skinny arms wrap around the width of her neck.
Just when Dinah thought she could not break any further, she breaks again. The façade shatters, and her face finds a spot in the curve of Ava's shoulder, and she cannot seem to stop herself from dissolving into wretched, horrified sobs.
She wanted to go home.
She wanted to wake up in a jolt and feel the sting of summer on her back, to hear Judah's laughter over something Malakai said, to wave to Simeon from the beach as he watches from the greenhills, to see Daddy's eyes twinkle as she approaches with her latest gift. Mama's curved grin as they pray before dinner, the lavender swaying in the saltbrine air; watching her youngest siblings sprout like weeds and showing them how to talk to God.
A home that does not exist anymore. A God that was never there.
Knuckles clench tight as Dinah holds her sister; as if she feared she may never get to again.