Broken Antler Fen I'd hate to see you waiting

why was she bringing this up? "i not go anywhere and act stupid, bridget. or attack anyone." why was she pleading now? she wanted to cry, betrayal twisting an irrational knife in her gut. but teya demanded that her spirit remain reined for now.
she had already decided to go to the caldera. 
the only change was that she did not intend to take the cardinal with her.
she stared at the blood clinging to bridget's mouth. 
"i blame them for what they to do you."
the coolwater eyes were hard.
"i blame them for both us."
teya pulled away and began to turn, hoping desperately that bridget would say something else, but unable to stare long at the crimson there without being dragged into the volcanic headspace again. someone she loved beyond words had been harmed, and all she had was the one horrible recollection of towhee and the redhawk reek clinging all around them to go by.
was there more? what had she missed?