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"your children were the price for your freedom."
ramesses said it aloud, musing. it was not a situation he would ever suffer as he was a man, and it was not something to which he could relate. that her willowy grace had harbored such a darkened past — he would not have suspected. 
she filled his vision. he was silent for a long time.
"the god Bes, he loves children. he is their protector. when the dog-headed shadows of death push into the birthing chamber, it is Bes who holds them at bay. in order to do this, he disfigured himself and became a monster. he frightens away the wicked, but his face also brings fear to children. and so it is a double-edged sword."
the words were quiet. the tone was muted. "i think only that you are very brave."