Redhawk Caldera opalescent

"i wanted you to keep loving me, reyes!" teya almost screamed under her breath. she hated to cry in front of him. she loathed how he never encircled her with his arms when she wept, how he left her so vulnerable in every moment she ever tried to show him.
maybe she had only gotten into a relationship with him because she hated towhee.
that realization drenched her as if it were a barrel of the iciest water. 
but it did not change how she felt. she could not shut him out with coldness. reyes had always found his way beneath her skin. "i want you to understand that if you not choose to come back because i pregnant, i would be" stuck "alone. and the night i tell you how much you hurt me, you become angry and cut me off."
it didn't matter. there was no excuse for what she had done and continued to do and would keep doing. why even have this conversation? exhaustion sundered teya down onto her haunches.
"by the time i tell you about — i tell you i was pregnant, reyes, it was too late. you say you cannot do this and you ask me to —" well. he knew. "and then you just ... walk away."
the tears were slowing. her voice was empty. 
"it over then." it was over now. "have what you want. i not leave this island. and in a year, you not have to fake it any longer." sorana needed that year. they could give her that year. teya could do that for her. and she already knew reyes was capable of it. everything he had he gave to their daughter.