Redhawk Caldera friends break up, friends get married

"Sylvie, I appreciate your good will and offer, but you do not have to do things you may not wish or feel like doing. Out of - I dunno - sense of guilt or just because it is something adults do," Dwin tried to point out that Sylvie had no obligation of helping with kids, if that was, what she did not enjoy doing in the end. "Being selfless is a good quality, if it does not come at the expense of your own happiness. I learned that the hard way this year. And... well... in the end I am glad that I stayed, I learned a lot about myself, but..." she paused, having hard time to find the right way to form the thought she wished to express. "At the end of the day, having kids is a personal decision of the pair. And if they cannot manage on their own, it is unfair to expect that anyone else should be obliged to help them," this was unfair to her parents and Teya, but it was true. 

"I mean, for a long time I felt that the kids simply bring out the worst in me, I just could not cope with everything. And at times I really did not recognize myself. I am not a grumpy person or unfriendly, or unkind, that's not me, but I could not break out of it, when yet again some crap happened, involving those kids," she said. Sharing this vulnerability with Sylvie did not feel as bad, because - surprisingly - of all people in the family she knew, what it meant to doubt oneself. "It is easier now that they are older and they can stand their ground or outrun danger. Their intellect is growing too, but still... Home did not feel like home I once knew and only recently it is returning back to me bit by bit," she finished and sighed.