Moonspear long in tooth and soul

it soothed arcturus -- perhaps selfishly so -- to learn dirge at least missed some parts of his family. to know the mate his sister had chosen was in some ways a family man sat well with the beta -- for in his eyes, family was everything.

but maybe the spear was dirge's family now. arcturus was not so stupid as to believe blood was the only unifying factor when it came to familial bonds. knowing this subject was rather personal, and required opening oneself up and being vulnerable, arcturus was not too surprised when the topic subtly shifted. he knew he was prying, digging even -- but arcturus only wished to know.

"they have left us." he answered, very indirectly. realizing this answer was not satisfactory, he unveiled a slow sigh and tried again. "they have made their choices. i would have stood by their sides forever, as long as they had stayed with us. but instead they left us -- so maybe i do miss them.. but only the idea of them. maybe i'm holding onto my own ideals of what they should be, and not missing or loving them for who they truly are -- which are abandoners of a family that needed them." arcturus was not afraid to be vulnerable in front of dirge -- a glint briefly shimmered along the rim of his sunny gaze, which had since grown cold. he often tried not to think of how when he had needed his siblings most when his parents had died, they had trounced off into the wilderness without a single care for the shattered lives they left behind. how could arcturus heal from his grief, when those he relied on for support suddenly pulled themselves out from under him? "i needed them, and they were not there. so i've made a family of a different kind instead. you, hydra -- your children -- moriko, nikai."