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For a moment he stayed in place as she nibbled gently his earlobes, a light tremble in her touch. It had been very long since she had touched another in that way; if she ever had, at all. With Xan, it had been a playful bout that had turned into something more, but they'd skipped right past the affections and when finally he opened his eyes and realised that he loved her too it had been too late; she'd been broken. With Iliksis, it... She swallowed thickly as he pulled away, not because of him but because of her thoughts hissing, hot breath at the back of her own ears. She wasn't sure which of this she was doing of her own volition, which she was doing because Iliksis goaded her on, which because she wanted to repay him, truly, and which... which for the sake of regaining a semblance of control. Laughable, Iliksis confirmed.

One of her fears was that he would see her as desirable, despite her own intentions towards him. To be an object of a man's lust terrified her, and it was what had kept her away from him. Perhaps she knew long before she knew. She also knew he was unattached. Yet what he said next soothed her soul and confirmed to her only that it would be right to have children with him. He was unable. He would not take her, and she relaxed visibly. One might interpret it as deflated rather than relieved, all of the tension seeping away, but this made her more sure and determined. She smiled, understanding.

She could not trust men, but perhaps she could trust Mahler.

A promise to keep her and them safe. Another confirmation, for Laurel. Thank you, she murmured, seeing the haste in his eyes, knowing he must go. She could not help but wonder what had scarred his soul that he should leave so rapidly, just like all of the things that had scarred hers and kept her away from men for so long.

I will find you, she promised. Laurel gently booped the side of her muzzle against his before she withdrew further away from him and turned away; for now.