Northstar Vale I need to spin my wheels

She considered Towhee's words. There were parts of it Fennec had really liked. The moments when she'd felt competent, and like she helped someone, had been rewarding, but she wasn't sure the frustration most other times was worth it. I think that's my problem. There always seems to be someone else, and usually when I try, I wind up feeling more in the way than anything else. My process doesn't really fit with teamwork. That wasn't necessarily true, but she'd never had another medic (since Eljay) actually invite her to assist. Without a clear line of communication, staying out of the way felt like the most help she could give.

It's just something I've been thinking about. With the gardens and all. Maybe I'll just stick to being emergency backup for now. She was glad Towhee had been honest, but the answer was definitely one she'd expected. She'd never really been considered "fully fledged" in the way Raven, Eljay, and Aquene were.

Mereo could use her in other ways, so it didn't really matter anyway.