Moonspear that’s just who i am this week.

Whatever Fennec expected, it wasn’t that. The instant he started, she knew she was going to cry, but she managed to hold it together until he got to the bit where he said he wasn’t waiting for her to change. That was where she silently lost it and stopped walking while she did so.

Everyone expected her to change. Everyone. With Bronco she’d needed to be more understanding. With Germanicus more respectable. With Killdeer more pulled together, with Towhee and Fig happier. She wasn’t sure she remembered how to just be anymore. And yet in all of the above circumstances, she’d always fallen short, because she was also no good at being something she wasn’t.

Germanicus had been the worst. At least with Bronco she’d known it was coming. With Germanicus she’d thought they were being honest. She’d thought they at least had enough friendship to matter. But even when things were good she couldn’t trust them.

Even now, she wondered if she could trust Penn, but that didn’t stop the tears. She couldn’t reply. She just stood there, silently brimming with embarrassment, but unable to stop. Fuck.