Moonspear i’m on the dark side of a hollow hill

did it depend on the natural order of things? could arcturus keep himself in check?

he listened with one ear pulled back, a constellation of worry settling across his features. the more he had thought (and believe me, he had thought a lot before getting the balls to talk to anyone about htis) about his particular encounter, the more he believed what he had done was wrong.

arcturus thought the answer dirge gave was fair, but wondered: was he giving a vague reply to protect himself -- or arcturus? was there more to dirge's past than arcturus had ever dared dream -- and could arcturus live with the ghost of dirge's past suitors -- could hydra?

he quickly chased such thoughts away, feeling no more clearminded than before. brow pulled down in confusion, arcturus admitted something he would say to no other soul. "it's all really confusing."