Redsand Canyon I can change a tire on the side of a road

I know. That’s not why you’re my favorite, but it’s part of why. She gave him a genuine smile, one that didn’t last long but was clearly purely for him. She had the best kid - and did not fucking deserve him, but somehow managed to cheat and get lucky anyway. When she heard the way his voice caught, she leaned against him, silently letting him know she was listening and there.

She could hear how hard it was for him to say what he did and she hated it. She hated that the Caldera fell apart. She hated that he had to split time between she and Bronco. Between her and Towhee. She hated that she hadn’t asked her mom to come with her originally, and that her stupid selfish cowardice had put them in the situation they were in now.

I don’t know. She didn’t want to lie. Mom’s having kids, and it’s hard to move when they are small. They have each other there, and sometimes it’s complicated. I think she likes it there. This was a new guilt, that realization that she’d probably ruined her son’s happiness by hiding Arcana from her mother. How different would things be if she’d invited Towhee and she had come? Would Killdeer have chosen to stay there too?

Fuck. She was so fucking stupid sometimes.

Fuck.

I’d join Epoch if you wanted to, but I don’t feel the way they do about it. We can always ask them, and even if they can’t come now, we can try to build something they’d want to join when they can. She owed him that. And she owed it to Towhee too, after last time. One fuck up she intended to learn from.