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She didn’t miss the hesitation and as always, her mind read paragraphs into it. That it wasn’t sincere, than even with that he was lying for her feelings. That he wouldn’t really miss her, and that he would move on from her entirely and leave her behind. The fear was hard to control, but even as it clawed it’s way up inside her, she slammed the lid on it and let none of it show.

He didnt want it. If she took nothing from this, it was that he wanted her to lie to him and not express what she felt because those feelings, while honest, weren’t ones he wished to hear. For as much as Fennec enjoyed lying about stupid shit, she had never been one to keep her feelings shuttered when it came to the stuff that mattered. It felt wrong, when she needed the opposite from him, but at this point there was nothing else to do.

She didn’t respond to his insistence though she hated that it was the case. She’d never needed his protection. She never felt like she’d even had it. He’d never protected her in the ways that mattered, because the things that hurt most weren’t the ones he could defend her against. He couldn’t protect her from herself.

She couldn’t tell the truth and her heart wasn’t in the lies. So, for the first time in a long while, she let the silence stretch. He could decide where the conversation went next and she would play along, but right now, she wasn’t sure what ground was safe to tread. A part of her wanted to leave, but she remained where she was and waited. She wouldn’t risk making him think there was something unresolved to be addressed.