Noctisardor Bypass fossopa

"yes," and her breath caught at the shock in dinah's voice, the following rush of a thousand assumptions about how her much-beleaguered eldest daughter might be feeling. 
"it wasn't —" wanted? desired? sought after? "— expected. i —" didn't want it to happen like this
"i didn't — they won't change anything. about us. or our family. i wanted it to be another way, dinah, i did. or not for it to happen at all. but it did. and — they can never be you, or ava," relegating the babes even now in desperation.