Wapun Meadow learning that i’m deserving of love and the peaceful heart

of course
of course — he let out a breath he was not aware he had been holding, closed his eyes gently as indra pressed for the meaning of his words.
of course of course of course the bitch couldn't just let him go.
the serpent flicked its tongue through his stare.
"no, you really don't," came the harsh click of his teeth. "you left me, indra. left me to go chasing kids that weren't even yours." his tone became conversational; he paced forward a step. "did you find them, mom? i hope to god you found them. i hope that the whole fucking thing was worth it."
"anyway," merrick continued, in the same calm way despite the tears now blazing rivulets along his sable cheeks, "anyway dad left. and you left. and then nunataq left. you all left. only she stayed," he snarled malevolently, jerking his head toward astara. "only she saw this this this this thing you made me. and she stayed anyway."
a shaking breath, rapid blinking as he fought for the rapidly disappearing measure of control. "so, mommy," he mocked, running tongue across the ridges of his teeth, "you have to die now."
die — merrick angrily wiped away the saltwater with a fore-ankle. "i can't live till you do."