Ravensblood Forest serenity

ME TOO but never apologize <33 it's all amazing

"because babies are born then," heda said, almost hiccuping over her sob. why did it hurt so much to say? sadly unbeknownst to her, something more was coming for heda, something she neither knew of or sensed even as her heart fell into conflict.
it was all coming apart! she watched in agony as confusion and anguish and something else, things she could not understand, crossed the face that had always been open to her.
heda had ruined it. she with her fancifulness and stupid ignorance, she with no memory of what romance even resembled save for the few times she had seen of the way lane and tuuluuwaq had looked at each other.
hadn't bartholomew looked at kacia the same way? had she been wrong? blood pounded in her ears and sickened her throat. did he think less of her? did he hate her now?
"i'm sorry," heda whispered, knowing that this man would never blame her. but she wanted it, she wanted him to leave some of it for her to bear, if just to prove she was worth more than to be abandoned.
again.
"i don't know how i feel. it's just — confusing, i guess, to suddenly feel — you know." it was wrong and possessive and heda knew it had a hundred roots. "maybe if you get married and have kids then you — won't —" and her eyes welled with tears now, to touch so direct upon the seat of that old pain.