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"then don't forgive me, dinah."
the first breath that passed through her lungs felt like shards of glass ground beneath a carpet. dinah was wrong and she was right and she was wrong and she was so right.
her body felt bruised in the way dinah cut away from her.
"i've lost six children." there was no way to convey how this felt, how this felt like the bleakest failure that ever came to pass. "yes. judah and daddy are dead." had she ever denied it? but even if she had not, there was resistance in her — for judah.
  i feel like i don't even have a mom anymore
this twisted in her chest, her heart.
"yes. they're dead. but we aren't," she hissed, suddenly seized by a paroxysm of anger at dinah's complete lack of understanding. "so yes. i am going to leave you and ava with john. i am going to find a place where we're not freezing and starving every single moment of the day. i am g-going to sacrifice more. i am not dragging you into the world to be ... hurt. harmed! do you understand, dinah!? this is the only place that is safe. never think i want to leave. never think for a moment i want to do this." to be this. "i have no one else. just you. just him. i will be back, because i have to be. because i want to be."