Noctisardor Bypass yuljeda

heda found she had no argument. she could pipe up, insist that she'd had caracal and the nearness of the redhawks — what if anselm had never possessed that? how old had he been when mahler left him behind too? 
but when druid spoke of etienne, heda shifted uncomfortably. "he told me he doesn't think anselm considers him a friend, just tolerates him."
she sat with that for a minute, then glanced at her sister with a despondent tinge to her gilt gaze. "but i want it to work out. i d-destroyed my family, druid. i-i got into my head, and — and i was punished for it."
only ava, dinah, and ana had ever come back. and now dinah was gone. tears overflowed; "i don't deserve anything, druid," she almost sobbed, fighting so hard for control that her jaw clenched.
"i want it to be better for my boys. they need anselm, now that they know him. and i want to make it work for them, no matter what."