Redhawk Caldera Jet Song

He snorted and bit at his lip to keep a smirk from getting too big. As much as Fennec looked incredibly displeased and fed up with him, she was still kind of adorable. "Well lookee who's not such an asshole after all," He commented, feeling a shy glimpse of humour slide into his tone. It was impossible to check- but it likely came from the relief he felt that she'd stopped yelling, and was actually going to give him a chance to explain himself. She could have simply told him no and stormed off- but she hadn't. Maybe there was hope. 

But he still had a lot to say, and managing to explain himself without coming off as being defensive, or trying avoid blame, was going to be like walking through a minefield. "I...You're right," That was always a good place to start, right? "I should have known that...You would've enjoyed the trip to the- to Yuèlóng," He said, having almost forgotten the pack's name for a moment. "You told me that you didn't like being left behind and...You're right, I...Could've invited you, but I didn't. And I wish I had, because it...Would've been great, having you along with us, I just...It was Meerkat's mission, and I didn't want to step on her paws by changing any of her plans. I brought that coconot back because I was just...Thinking, while I was there, a lot." About her? Of course. But it was hard to say that again, when she'd already claimed he couldn't possibly have had feelings for her if he hadn't truly been listening to her. 

"The den..." He said, drawing in a breath. Oddly, he didn't feel quite as ashamed of the truth now as he had been shortly after it had happened. After all, he had visited her in her den here at the Caldera, and he'd been tangibly unstable. But he couldn't have expected Fennec to connect all the dots. "The one you dug, near the river. I didn't know it until I stepped inside but- I guess, I'm sort of...Terrified of being underground. I swear I didn't know it until then, I just fucking...Choked, and I stepped back and I fell straight off the ledge and into the river." He said. He hadn't seen her afterwards so now, he finally began to wonder if she'd seen him, or heard him fall. "You didn't come out so I just...Thought you thought I was pathetic, and yeah, I got...Pissed, and like the stupid idiot I am I kicked the damn coconot into the river and stormed off." He admitted. 

"So yeah, I guess you're right. I am an asshole." He said, defeatedly. And when he shrugged, something in his neck cracked quietly. "I do listen, but I just...I think I was tryin' to...I wanted to make you happy, I really did, I just..." And he let out a gush of air. "I have absolutely no clue what I'm doing, Fennec." He said, and a sad, cackling laugh came at him then, from somewhere deep within his gut that forced a pain into his stomach, and brought tears to his eyes. "Ughhh, damnit, I have no fucking clue!" He said, his voice punctuated by shameful, but uncontrollable laughter. He wasn't sure he was even smiling as he laughed- something pulled his lips back into a pained grin. At least he could laugh at himself, a bit, and while the laughter felt odd, it did bring him a bit of relief.