Stone Circle I will touch the rain with all I have

Writing this post caused me physical pain LMFAO

Gunnar seemed to have the answers for everything. He took all of her doubt in stride, simplified it in a way she both envied and appreciated deeply in this moment. She thought, not for the first time, that she loved him. Then she thought that she wanted to kiss him, and that thought threw the whole thing into chaos. He's older than my father! But then, so was Phox. This was different though. She felt as though Gunnar could have really been her father. Except he wasn't. He was a man unrelated to her, maybe even a little handsome — and most of all he was kind. Oh, by the Mother...
Best to shelve that thought for now. I think I can manage uniqueness, She smiled and tried not to feel horribly traumatized by her own thoughts. Do you ever doubt yourself, Gunnar? Maybe he would have a story to tell her, maybe that would distract her from such terrible urges. Horrible! She thought again of what she had done with Lestan, and wondered if that had turned her into this. If she was becoming what her father had always warned against. She hoped not.